Jabberwocky for 2005 January 28 (entry 0)

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[Comments] (5) Placement: We had 1600 placement essays to read this morning. There were about 27 teachers there, bt we didn't finish before we burned out. We read from 8:30 to one. I don't know where they will find teachers or class sections for all those students. It's a hard job because you have to stay mentlly alert all the time and evaluate carefully so that the student is placed in the class where they can be most successful. I have a headache now.

Lots of people ate the lemon bars and enjoyed them very much--a bit of a lift. When I came home I went to bed, and then when I got up I took lemon bars to my visiting teaching families. I also took back Sherrie Lewis's Christmas plate with some on it. Gretel went with me, and it was a nice long ride in the car for her.

Today I ate about 1/2 cup of consomme and a chunck of watermelon before I threw up. Then I ate a chunk of cantelope and three bites of pita bread. Threw up again. Also I have drunk a small bottle of cranberry juice.

While I was outside throwing up into the trash can, Becky Mooney came out and said "Are you all right". I don't know what to say when people ask that. I don't know what to say when people ask how I am feeling. The real answer is, hey people, I feel rotten. I always feel rotten. I'm DYING, for goodness sake. And not quickly and cleanly either, but slowly and painfully. But I don't think it pays to talk about it because what is the point? Doesn't change anything. So, I need to think of something to say that doesn't hurt anyone's feelings and makes them feel better.


Comments:

Posted by Brendan at Fri Jan 28 2005 22:23

"As well as ever?"

Posted by Rachel at Fri Jan 28 2005 23:02

I also don't know what to say when people ask how you are doing.

Posted by Susie at Sat Jan 29 2005 09:46

I say "fine" unless I think they really care.

Posted by anonymous at Sat Jan 29 2005 12:56

The fact that you continue to work and cook and plant go to church and movies and do normal things we can all relate to throws some of us off into thinking you are better off than you are, unless we read your blog or talk to you often. It is really rotten that you are in a position to put others at ease when you need it so badly yourself. Marianne

Posted by Camilla at Wed Feb 23 2005 13:17

But I don't think it pays to talk about it because what is the point? Doesn't change anything.

That's probably how I would feel about it too... I mean, I feel that way about a lot of stuff already. I would probably come up with something snide to say though, just to throw them off and hopefully make them think about it a little.


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