(2) Tue Jan 17 2006 10:14 MLK:
I am so happy about my purchases made yesterday that I must write about them. We went to Old Navy and all their kid clothes were super cheap. I was getting fleece pants for $1.49 each so I bought like 6, and $3.00 jammies, and a couple cute nice tops for $3.00. I think I got a total of 22 things for $50. I love getting things on sale; it is one of the best feelings in the world.
We didn't do much anything else on the holiday except have dinner with friends and play games. Oh wait, I take that back. I got to have lunch with my long time elementary school friend Sandra at Olive Garden. It was fun and yummy since I hadn't been there so long.
(10) Tue Jan 17 2006 22:32 Back in the day:
I really miss when Lily couldn't walk and I could just stick her in her bouncy seat in front of a Baby Einstein movie while I took a shower. Or when I didn't have to have a children's gate to hike over every time I want to enter the kitchen, to keep Lily out of such things in there (trash, Tupperware, pots, pans, and cleaning supplies). I also miss when I could leave her in a room and she wouldn’t dishevel the book shelves and tear out every cd, movie, and book in it. Or one of my other fav's: throwing all her food on the floor, every piece, every spec, every time. I really miss being able to spoon feed her and Lily liking it.
She really tried my patience today when she pulled my hair… and pulled… and pulled and pulled despite all my efforts. I know she was being naughty because she pretty much knows now that it is a no-no. When I say "be soft" she stops pulling soon after and starts petting my hair like I showed her. Not today. She was being evil and kept yanking. There is something about getting your hair pulled that makes the survival animal come out. Especially since the scalp is so sensitive to it. Needless to say I slapped her hand--the first physical discipline I have used on her. It felt good slapping her hand right after I pried my hair out of her fist, but then the guilt set in. I don't believe in physical punishments, I don't think they work. I think it teaches kids aggression is met with more aggression to fix a problem...newsflash-it doesn't work. Being the product of spanking, I am here to say that it makes you want to physically cause others pain, and you begin to like it. To clear that up: I don't actually like to spank Lily, never have wanted to go that far, but relieving my anger with physical aggression felt good, but only for that second I did it. Plus it didn't work. Lily laughed in my face, obliviously oblivious to the reality of it all, thinking it was a game, and proceeded to try and slap my arm and shoulder. Nice.
It is days like this where the annoyance list hits the max and I feel like crap for not being a perfect mom because if I am not, then my children are ruined for life and become complicated adults with irrational feelings and pent up anger. If anyone needs me, I am at the clinic getting sterilized.