Yesterday I was at Becca's carving pumkins and watching Prarie Home Companion. Now I am at Becca's to make a red cross armband for tomorrow--I'm going to be an ambulance driver! I have two halloween costumes this year because I went to a gypsies, tramps & thieves themed party on Saturday, so I was a half-hour gypsy (that's how long it took me to throw together my costume and I must say it looked pretty good). All this in between French interviews, research proposals, and getting ready for my lecture on colonialism during WWI for my British Empire class. I think it's time to go watch Gallipoli, I want to see if there is a good scene from that movie to show in class, since last time I gave a lecture I ended about half an hour early. I was feeling quite down and discouraged last week, but I think I was having an allergic reaction to Bakersfield. Now I am quite pep & chipper, and I have lots of hope, if I'm as busy as ever. I always alternate between thinking I am special stuff & of course I'll get into all the places I am applying, to thinking I am second rate at best & just dreaming, and I'll never be able to pay for it anyway. I'm sure the answer is in the middle and anyway the best I can do is apply & see & that is what I am doing. One only has so much control over one's future, and I have done the best I can and I think that is a pretty good job. For example taking French because I know it will help my career. Well, nothing keeps me grounded and happy like school, so I will just be glad to go on in my little way. Quite the opposite of "a striving, and a striving, and an ending in nothing" (African Farm). 
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(1) Mon Oct 30 2006 17:55 PST Gyspying:
I went to Target today for an eye appt. I really needed new glasses since they got scratched somewhere along the line and I decided to get contacts too... It took me almost two hours to put them in and take them back out again. I have to practice again when I get home tonight. I figure I will get better at it with practice... I have never been too good at touching my eye but I guess you can get used to anything.