[Comments] (3) update: here are some of my latest adventures...

This weekend I had the opportunity to work in a facility for clinicals, in which I worked with people who were not guilty by reasons of insanity. It was an interesting and almost overwhelming experience. As part of this clinical rotation we completed a schizo voices experiment where we listened to "voices" while completing tasks. I did pretty well, but the longer I listened the flatter my affect became and the harder it was to respond appropriately. Some voices were pleasent and others were irrational. Some weren't distinct voices but just ongoing abnormal noises. I found myself thinking about what the voices were talking about, feeling guilty for things they said I did, or the way I interpreted them. In order to ignore the voices I exhibited a thought disorder of "concrete thinking" in which you state, almost just state the obvious I guess, because you don't have the time or energy to think deeply. The experience was emotionally draining, leaving me physically tired. It was a positive experience though because I can now appreciate how difficult living with voices and thought disorders can be. I can understand why some people don't get treatment, others do well with treatment, and others don't respond to treatment at all.

[Comments] (1) ready or not here I come: I'm a final away from being done with the semester. This semester change is going to be a big change for me. For the summer I'm moving back home. Haven't lived at home, or even spent more than a week there for about 6 years, but it is the financially responisble thing to do. Also with the move means new job(s). I've applied for a bunch of hospital jobs in the Salt Lake area and am just waiting to hear back from them. I'm going to miss Logan/USU. I've had some awesome times and met many incredible people. Change sucks sometimes. This quote summarizes how I feel:

"Change means movement. Movement means friction. Only in the frictionless vacuum of a nonexistent abstract world can movement or change occur without that abrasive friction of conflict." -Saul David Alinsky

It's going to be an adjustment, but it needs to happen.

[Comments] (1) My new job: I love my new job a lot. It is a lot of fun actually. I am working as a nurse at the new Intermountain Medical (aka the Death Star or Mother ship), on the 12th floor. This building is SO tall, and the view is spectacular. I can't wait until I am a registered nurse and get to play with the IV's here, but I can do everything else as an LPN. Yay for the real world...it rocks!!

[Comments] (1) lazy: I have nothing much to report except that I am LAZY. I have always known this, but I realize that I really just pretty much do nothing most of the time. I guess it's becaus I have to be so efficent at work and school, that I can't do it at home. oh well.

Current Projects: -catching up on my scrapbook. Doing ok except I haven't started BB season and I just printed 200 new pics. Yes seriously at least 200. I have an addiction. -Finishing my recipe book. I am frusterated because I can't find my 34th ward RS cookbook and it has recipes I need. Otherwise it is looking awesome. -Cleaning my room. Not doing so well, let's be honest. -Laundry. Hate it, need to desperatly do it. and for the love it's FREE finally, why don't I just do it already!?! -petting the dogs and watching TV....very good at this.

Random thought: I went to the movies (finally saw Indiana Jones) and there was a poster that disturbed me... "No children under 6 allowed in rated-R movies after 6 p.m. Keep your child safe." ummm last time I checked children under 6 shouldn't go to rated-R movies period. Not to mention before 6 anyway...

New favorite quote: "All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another." -Anatole France

[Comments] (14) Precepting: Newsflash... I get to precept this semester in the ER at Ogden Regional Hospital. I am so excited!!!

[Comments] (2) Museum of Ancient Life: Yesterday we went to the Museum of Ancient Life at Thanksgiving point. I don't care what your philosophy is on how or when or why dinosaurs etc, existed they are still cool to learn about. I hadn't been to the museum in years but it still was fascinating to walk around. Of course my favorite was t-Rex and the giant shark. I still remember years ago when all of my cousins were in town and we pretended to throw Lorna in the shark's mouth, I ducked from the caveman skeleton that was throwing a rock, and Frances posed with the archeologists because we were sure to be related!

Funny things: I heard today...

"There are nice ones and naughty ones like 'Hey lets make Icecream sundaes tonight' is nice, while 'Hey babe, I'll bring the nuts and chocolate syrup if you bring the cherry' is naughty."

"Can you believe I'm seventy and still wearing a g-string?"

"I'm going to choke on my ice!" "Don't worry, it should melt before you expire."


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