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[Comments] (3) update: here are some of my latest adventures...

This weekend I had the opportunity to work in a facility for clinicals, in which I worked with people who were not guilty by reasons of insanity. It was an interesting and almost overwhelming experience. As part of this clinical rotation we completed a schizo voices experiment where we listened to "voices" while completing tasks. I did pretty well, but the longer I listened the flatter my affect became and the harder it was to respond appropriately. Some voices were pleasent and others were irrational. Some weren't distinct voices but just ongoing abnormal noises. I found myself thinking about what the voices were talking about, feeling guilty for things they said I did, or the way I interpreted them. In order to ignore the voices I exhibited a thought disorder of "concrete thinking" in which you state, almost just state the obvious I guess, because you don't have the time or energy to think deeply. The experience was emotionally draining, leaving me physically tired. It was a positive experience though because I can now appreciate how difficult living with voices and thought disorders can be. I can understand why some people don't get treatment, others do well with treatment, and others don't respond to treatment at all.

[Comments] (1) ready or not here I come: I'm a final away from being done with the semester. This semester change is going to be a big change for me. For the summer I'm moving back home. Haven't lived at home, or even spent more than a week there for about 6 years, but it is the financially responisble thing to do. Also with the move means new job(s). I've applied for a bunch of hospital jobs in the Salt Lake area and am just waiting to hear back from them. I'm going to miss Logan/USU. I've had some awesome times and met many incredible people. Change sucks sometimes. This quote summarizes how I feel:

"Change means movement. Movement means friction. Only in the frictionless vacuum of a nonexistent abstract world can movement or change occur without that abrasive friction of conflict." -Saul David Alinsky

It's going to be an adjustment, but it needs to happen.


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